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It’s a New Year, and I Don’t Play.
I used to play. For fun. To indulge the other person. To make light of the situation. To feel good. To feel better. But the surface is hardly ever fun long-term, I wanted something real. And playing leads to uncertainty, To mixed feelings, To boredom, And longing for more. So I stopped, Abruptly. It was…
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“Currently” Making Progress: Mid-April 2025 Check-In?
Currently Maintaining An Exercise Routine I’m still exercising, mostly every other day. I may have missed a few days over the past two weeks. It hasn’t been easy, but I’m still making progress and showing up. Since I last wrote here, I’ve increased the ski machine distance to 2200m (still level 10). My goal was…
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“Currently” Making Progress: An Update On My Projects and Activities This Quarter
Currently Reading The Artist’s Way I’m currently reading The Artist’s Way. I know, I know. A lot of people are reading that book right now or have read it. I’ve had it since 2021, but once I got to Week 2, I stopped reading and haven’t picked it up again. I guess I wasn’t ready…
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On The Fire: How Could An Angel Create So Much Hell?
Fire has been confusing for me. For an embarrassing amount of time, Fire confused me. Because of this, Fire is something that I think about a lot. I know how I feel about it now. I’ve taken quizzes. Read books. Researched. Inquired. Meditated. The works on Fire. To determine what it means for me. How…
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For The Rage: Where Do You Go?
Some may never understand my rage. When you want to scream, but everyone is listening. They don’t hear you any other time. They don’t help but are always ready to judge your mistakes, your failures, and your shortcomings. You want to break things, but things cost too much to replace. You’ll be fine living…
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The Mask is Larger Than the Halo
This was a painting I created a few years ago. I’m not sure when. I didn’t have a name for it, until recently. Sometimes, naming a creation is a slow process. But now that I’ve given it a name, it feels complete. Notaurean, The Mask is Larger Than the Halo (202x), Oil on Canvas
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Crimson
A beauty, Ethereal. Her mesmerizing glow dimmed. Yet, she still captivates. A real showstopper.
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When We Decide To Breathe
They’ve danced around in their feelings for years. Furthering their journey through tension. The point of no return was anticipated. Counting from three, they long for confession. When two become one. The question arises, “What have we done?”
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For My Presence: Do I Know You?
Sometimes, I just don’t show up. Why? I let the past influence me. I allowed the past to control me in ways I easily overlooked. I let it limit me. I let it silence me. I let it hide me. I allowed past people to dictate my current behavior. I was a fool. I was…